Continuing with my moon-phase inspired series, I am painting a self-portrait. With this painting, I am hoping to express my commitment to being an artist and the release of my fears from being an artist. The past years I have been struggling with embracing this aspect of my life. Looking for answers where none were required. This painting came to me one day as I stared up into the moon as it was reaching “fullness.” I stared and stared, hoping that the moon would present an answer to me. In the stillness of evening and the glowing moonlight, I realized that no answer was coming. My answer was already here. I was afraid of being an artist – to present my work, express my gratitude for my talents and proudly exclaim, “Yes, I am an artist!” Change is quite a challenge – to break from the norm and to tread the unknown. I have been living afraid the last few years, blindly walking the path of the artist and not realizing what was in front of me. I am making strides and living my dream. It may not be what I first envisioned. Never the less, it is what it is and I am living my dream. This time with my eyes open to the opportunity.
This is the sketch with scribbles of thoughts and feelings. I hope to convey it in my painting.